Chapter 30 Fragile and Frail

Okay so I don't know exactly how heart ops go but here goes....
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It doesn't take me long to locate mum in the car park, she's the only one flapping about with a screaming child in her arms!
"Thank God your here! She won't stop screaming!" Mum thrusts the little pink bundle into my arms. I look down at her, she's surprisingly cute considering her possible parentage. She has a face like a porcelain doll, a pale creamy complexion and big green eyes. She has soft curly blonde hair. She lies in my my arms and stares up at me, still whimpering.
"Shush, shush, little one." I gently rock her as I speak. "Rock-a-bye baby on the tree top, when the wind blows, the cradle will rock, when the bough breaks, the cradle will fall, down will come baby, cradle and all." I sing as I rock and her eyes flutter closed on the last line.
"There!" Mum sounds triumphant. I look round at her and she's standing beside a pram. " I watched Grace struggle for ten minutes trying to put that together, and I did it in two!" I glower at her, she is so proud of herself she ignores me. She wheels the pram over to me. I give it a couple of bounces to make sure it's steady before gently placing Scarlett inside.
"Does she have a blanket and stuff, you know, nappies and bottles?"
"Of course she does" she pulls a big pink frilly bag, that matches the pram from the backseat and attaches it to the handle of the pram. I walk to the drivers door and pull the keys out the ignition and lock the car.
We walk quickly towards the hospital entrance mum making me push the pram.
"Oh it'll not be long till I'm a nana will it honey? Your a natural, you get that from me you know, I'd have had lots of kids you know, if I could have... I can't complain though if only I'd been younger when I'd met your father....." Oh God not this again
"I know mum, I know. We need to find Grace just now, and Carrick. I hope he's okay"
"I'll go to the desk and ask you keep the baby quiet, will you?"
"Okay mum" I stand shuffling the pram backwards and forwards, making phishing sounds at the sleeping infant. People stop and look in the pram and tell me how lovely she is. I politely smile it's none of their business to know anything about her so I stay quiet and wait for mum. After what feels like forever she comes over and leads me through the corridors. Coronary Care Unit is emblazoned on the door.
"Ana! Over here" Elliot calls loud enough that I think the whole world heard him.
"Well done you woke the bloody baby" I snip at him. Scarlett lets out a loud wail.
I wheel the pram into the waiting room, change her nappy nappy she screams and and then I gently lift her into my arms and feed her. She quietens down as soon as the teat is in her mouth. I rock her gently and hum to her as she feeds. When she's done I lift her onto my shoulder to wind her. I rub her tiny back until she winds. I settle her back in my arms and rock her to sleep, when her eyes close I place her back into the pram. I suddenly notice the silence in the room and look up to see five pairs of eyes staring at me.
"What?"
"You are amazing, how'd you know what it wanted?"
"Scarlett is a baby Elliot! Babies do three things, eat, sleep and poop! It's not rocket science"
"Don't touch it again!" He growls from the corner, his gray eyes hard and cold like granite. I visibly shudder.
"So we let it cry next time then bro?"
"Kate can touch it"
"Christian, your being ridiculous! I'm more than capable of doing this, and mum's here. You all need to be with Carrick right now, he needs his family round him."
"Ana! Don't push me on this! Stay away from that" he points at the pram.
"Fine! I don't see why your so bothered! You don't even know for sure it's Mia's!" I move away to beside Christian. I can hear the wee one fussing in the pram. I go against my every urge and sit in my seat. "Kate, the baby is about to cry" she looks at me like I'm mad.
"Its just lying there I'm sure it's fine." Kate is not into babies, not that I am or anything, but she hates them. She has avoided any of our friends that have kids, whereas I was always asked to babysit. Kate just hasn't found her inner mothering instinct, she loves her uni course, (she went for the part time course to allow her to travel and see the world) and wants a career first. I did want that but now I've found Christian, well you know, I want him and all his baggage.
The fussing is getting louder, I look over at Mum but she has her head buried in a trash magazine from two years ago. Ethan has fallen asleep in the corner, so he'll not help her.
"Will someone see to the baby!" I know she is about to scream. Christian shifts uncomfortably beside me. I think the baby's fusing is distressing him.
"Fine just go and shut it up!" He says. I move over to the pram and she is wide awake and smelling foul! I change her nappy and pick her up. She settles in my arms. I go back and sit beside Christian, he looks at me like I've got the bubonic plague. I ignore him and sit down. Christian lays is head on my shoulder as he takes a look at the baby in my arms. Scarlett looks up at him her eyes taking in everything. He sighs
"How could someone so poisonous create something so beautiful." He whispers to me.
"Mia said Maria had a baby Christian. She said it might be yours. I didn't know whether to tell you or not but you have a right to know." He looks at me contemplating what I've just said before jumping out his seat and stalking off out the room.
"Taylor is looking into it but I'm almost certain it isn't true. I was always careful and she was on the pill I watched her take it every day I was with her!" His phone rings and he rushes out the room again. He's back a few minutes later with Grace.
"He's stable" she says before collapsing into a chair.
"Will he be okay mom?"
"He's away having angioplasty, to break the clots and widen his arteries and possibly have stents placed." She looks like she has aged ten years in ten minutes.
Mum moves over beside her and gives her a hug.
"Where's Scarlett?" She asks panicked.
"I've got her." She looks at the sleeping infant in my arms
"She's asleep?"
"Yeah she's been as good as gold" I move to hand her back to Grace. She holds her close to her chest and breathes in her smell. I move back to beside Christian and she begins to fuss. Grace tries to calm her but she squawks louder. She puts her in the pram to change her nappy, but it doesn't work. She settles her in her arms with a bottle of milk and she refuses to take it screaming louder. Grace is almost in tears.
"Ana! Go and take the baby" he practically shouts at me. I sit looking at him he jumps up and takes the baby from his mother then places her in my arms. She calms down a bit as I rock her. Christian thrusts the bottle into my hand, I put it in her mouth and she drinks greedily. Grace looks stunned.
"How did you do that? She screams whenever she's awake awaken haven't slept for a month! Only Mia could get her to settle!" I shrug.
"Mom is she definitely Mia's baby?"
"I think so son. She just walked in with her one day and handed her to me. She said she'd had a baby and she wanted to put her up for adoption. I took one look and couldn't let her go, we have been trying to convince Mia to let us keep her ever since but she wants her in a foreign adoption scheme so that she will never come looking, was how she put it. Dad has the signed paperwork but we haven't filed it, I can't seem to let her go...." She tails off.
"I want her" my head spins round and my jaw practically bounces off the floor. "I spoke to Ray and we will even move to Seattle if that's what it takes. I couldn't have anymore children after Ana Grace. I was thirty two when she was born, there were complications and I had to have a hysterectomy. I know I'm fifty three but Ray and I have been approved and waiting for a child for years. We would keep you involved as much as you want. Please promise me you'll think about it!." I can feel the tears slipping down my face, she'd always told me that she had an early menopause. I stand up and move over to mum. I place Scarlett in the pram before diving into my mother's arms.
"Mum! Why didn't you tell me any of this?"
"Baby girl, I had you I never wanted you to think you weren't enough! Dad and I have been waiting for a baby for ten years now, we were told our chances were slim considering our ages..." at that moment a doctor come into the room
"Dr Trevelyn?" Grace stands, passing the baby to mum.
"Yes, how is my husband?"
"We placed two stents but he has a weakened valve, he will be with us for a while, he will need valve replacement surgery."
"When are you operating?"
"As soon as he is strong enough, his heart needs time to recover from the heart attacks and the angioplasty. We are hoping to hold off until next week, but we are prepared to do it sooner if it becomes necessary."
"Mom? What does that mean?" Elliot and Christian look scared.
"Your father is critically ill, his heart is not strong enough to withstand the surgery he needs right now so we have to start him on medication to control his blood pressure and bring down his cholesterol levels. The next forty-eight hours are critical."
"Thank you Dr James"
"He can have visitors, five minutes only though! No babies allowed on the ward, I'm sorry." He looks apologetically at Mum. Then he turns and leaves.
"I'll stay here with wee Scarlett, you should all go and see Carrick, tell him I said hi."
"I'll stay here with Carla and Scarlett too." Ethan looks at the floor. There is something odd going on with him, I just can't put my finger on it.
Christian grabs my hand and we follow Grace out the door, mum nods at me letting me know she'll be fine I smile back at her. Elliot and Kate are behind us, they have been acting weird too, sitting huddled in a corner with Ethan since we arrived... I must slip into that weird 'the lights are on but nobody's home' mind set as I walk straight into a door frame frame and end up in Christian's arms just before I hit the deck!
"We really should stop meeting like this Miss Steele!" He smiles at me. I reach up and use his muscular chest to lean on to get up before I wrap my arms around his neck and place a soft gentle kiss on his lips.
"Thank you for saving me Mr Grey."
"Come on your holding up the queue" Kate mutters. Christian strides up to the wall dispenser and covers his hands in the slimy gel, I'm next even though my hands are clean from me washing myself you after touching the baby. Kate goes next then Elliot. We are all handed yellow gowns to cover our clothing.
We file into the room. It's dominated by monitors all round a huge bed. Carrick looks small and frail, hooked up to all these machines. His normally handsome, for an older guy, face is obscured by an oxygen mask his skin is a pale shade of gray and his normally sparkling eyes seem dull and lifeless. He has drips in both arms pouring stuff into his veins. Grace steps up beside him and takes his hand.
"I thought I'd lost you darling" she whispers. They stare deeply into each other's eyes.
"Never" he croaks out. Graces tears spill over her eyelids and down her cheeks.
I feel like I'm intruding on a really intimate moment. I look over at Kate and catch her eye, I can tell she feels the same. I can't help but turn back towards them.
"Hey dad" Elliot says gently stepping up to his other side, Kate shuffling up behind him awkwardly. Carrick eyes swing round to his son he gives a slight nod.
"I hope your feeling better soon Mr Grey" Kate says. Christian steps up beside his mum and places his hand on top of theirs.
"I'm sorry dad" he whispers, tears stream unchecked down his beautiful face. A nurse comes in and asks us to leave. Elliot runs out followed by Kate. Grace bends down and places  a gentle kiss on his head before Christian steps back taking her arm and leading her away I go to follow but change my mind. I step up
"I'm really sorry for everything I've done."
"I need you to look after him for me Ana"
"I will, until the day I die. I love him"
He smiles. I pat his hand and step away just as I do one of the alarms sounds at the side of the bed.
"Get out now!" I'm shoved out the room as I see a bunch of doctors burst in and start CPR on Carrick. Grace Christian and I stand behind the glass partition as they fight to bring him back. Our faces all frozen in  a similar look of horror. A nurse approaches us and forces us to move back into the waiting room. Elliot and Kate aren't here and mum says Ethan is away to get some coffees and teas. Mum is lying on he floor playing with the baby.
"What's wrong?"
"My dad is being resuscitated and your playing with baby toys!" He snaps
"Don't talk to her like that Christian! I know your worried about Carrick but that's my mum" I can feel my fists clenching, he better watch his step!
"Why is she even here, why are you here Ana, morbid curiosity?"
"CHRISTIAN TREVELYN GREY! Behave yourself or leave! My husband is dying through there and you want to pick a fight? Go and do it somewhere else, I don't need your drama right now!" Wow! I didn't think mild mannered Grace had it in her! I back away from him. Baby Scarlett picks up on the tension and starts to wail. Mum picks her up and places her in the pram.
"I'll take the little one for a walk to give you some peace"
"Thank you Carla" mum scoots out out with the pram.
I sit at one side of the room beside Grace grace and Christian sits sulking over the other sides.
"Dr Trevelyn I need you to sign this, we need to operate now, we can't wait."
"Bypass? And valve replacement?"
"Yes, he's being preped for bypass as we speak. His heart can't take another attack. We only just got him back"
"Fine, I want to scrub in"
"That's not a good idea!"
"I don't care, I want to be there"
"You can be in the viewing gallery, and that's all. I need to get back to Mr Grey now"
Grace follows him they talk quickly in doctor speak to each other. I look at Christian, he refuses to look at me. I pull my phone out my pocket, scroll through till I come to Kate's number. I dial her.
"Ana? What's wrong?"
"Where the fuck are you!" I pace the floor as I speak.
"Elliot doesn't like hospitals, so we are at his place" she's gone home for a shag! I can't believe her sometimes!
"Carrick has been rushed back into surgery get your backsides in here. NOW!" I order.
"Shit, we'll be there ASAP honey, love you, bye"
"Bye"
I sit down next to Christian. I reach over and take his hand and hold it in mine. Words are inconsequential right now. He needs support support and I promised Carrick that I'd look after him and I intend to keep that promise.
"Taylor will take your mum and the baby back to Bellevue. They shouldn't be here, this isn't a good environment for an infant and I might end up saying something worse to your mother"
"My mum is harder than she looks! She will know you are upset, your dad is really ill...."
He grabs me and pulls my lips quickly to his, his already raw emotions sparking  carnal hunger in him. I kiss back greedily taking all he is giving me. He thrusts his tongue into my mouth, I suck on it gently making his eyes flare with unbridled desire. He pulls me onto his lap and pulls my top off, he rips my bra from my body and sucks each nipple in turn
"Oh, god!l I moan. His head snaps up.
"No baby he has nothing to do with it it's all me!"
"Shut up and don't stop again!" I chastise thrusting my now burning nipple back in his scorching mouth. His hands roam frantically over my body and fist in my hair, I've never felt him be so caught up in the moment before. He stands me up and pulls down my jeans and my knickers.
"No need for these" he puts them in his pocket after taking a long sniff. His eyes glint mischeviosly.
I know we shouldn't be doing this but, it's making him forget, for now, maybe this is the distraction he needs?
He goes me to the floor roughly before dropping his trousers and boxers. His hand circles my clit making me cry out. He thrusts in hard and fast, I can feel my back scraping over the carpet, it burns but somehow adds to my excited state. His thrusts become slower and deeper, I know he's nearly there, so am I. My body reaching up meeting him thrust for thrust until I can feel him. He is beginning to erupt inside me, my own orgasm detonates around him him I feel every ripple of pleasure coursing through my veins, burning them from the inside out, it is the most earth shattering orgasm I've had yet! He gently withdraws and hands me back my clothes we are both fully clothed and Sutton back in our seats when he breaks down.
"I need him to be okay, he was always there for me, even when I got kicked out of school, the first time I got caught trying to steal a car, after Maria, you know..."
"Yeah I know" I stroke his back with one hand and his cheek with the other. His eyes are flowing again
"I want him here for the good stuff to Ana, he needs to see our wedding, if you ever agree, he needs to see our children"
"If we have any, I'm too young just now honey"
"I know, I just want dad to be here. I need him to know I'm okay."
"Baby he knows your getting there, I'm sure it'll be okay"
"I'm not. I think my dad is gonna die! I'm not ready for that"
"Talk like this isn't helping anyone! You need to be positive baby, he will be depending on you and Elliot to be strong!" I'm just about to launch into an impassioned plea when Taylor knocks and enters.
"Sir Mrs Steele is at Bellevue. Ryan and Prescott are with her and the child."
"Thank you Taylor." He turns to leave
"Taylor?"
"Yes ma'am?"
"Could you please get Mr Grey something to eat?"
"Of course ma'am"
"Thanks." He politely nods and leaves leaves the room.
Christian coories up in my arms and I feel him getting heavier. I look down at his face, the worry etched onto his brow, and see he is asleep. Now it's just a waiting game.

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Chapter 29 The Showdown

A/N So here it is the big showdown between Mia and her family. Big thanks to Kerry and @bombushie for your input. Remember to follow this blog for the new chapters as they will be here first before appearing on fanfiction.net.
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We stand in the lift quietly. Taylor stands in front of us and I'm reassured by his presence. I really got to know him on our road trip to he'll and I could tell that he wanted to rip Christian limb from limb last night. I feel like I owe him a thank you but now is not the time. I can feel the anxiety bristling off Christian and I know it won't take much to set him off. I suddenly feel like the weight of the world has been dropped on my shoulders. I have to keep my feelings in check and his, one woman should not have all this put on her!
The lift comes to a halt and the doors glide open. Taylor does his security checks before we walk to the large black Audi. He opens the back door for Christian and I to slide in. I get in first and the two have a hushed chat outside the door. It really bugs me when they do shit like that, playing the whole feeble woman wouldn't be able to handle 'man's' business shit! I think I've more than proved that I can!
"What was all that about?" I ask the minute he slides in beside me.
"I asked Taylor to wait outside the door and only come in if he hears anything that would imply he's needed"
"You mean he's outside till I shout him, don't you?" His lips perk up into a half smile,
"Possibly baby" I reach out and stroke his face feeling the tension in his jaw reduce with my touch.
"Stop grinding your pearly whites baby, you'll give yourself a headache!" He removes my hand and places it gently in his.
"My teeth will be fine, once today is over and we can move on" he turns his head away and stares out the window. I notice we are not heading for Mia's apartment, but towards Bellevue.
"We are going to your parents house? My mother is there Christian!"
"She's out for the day with my mom. It's just gonna be me, you, dad, Elliot, Kate, Taylor, Sawyer, Ethan and Mia."
"Just?" The sarcasm drips from my statement like acid. He shoots me the 'don't fucking start Ana' look and  I bite my lip to stop myself from setting my own personal ticking time bomb off!
The trip seems to take forever, something I'm happy and sad about, one one hand I could live without today ever happening and on the other he needs this and I wish it was over already so that we could just move on with our lives! I have little interest in hearing Mia's side of things she has never endeared herself to me in fact she has gone completely out of her way to be a bitch and try to split us up! I suppose my small curious side, or as my mum calls it my nosey Parker complex really wants to know how a twenty year old woman decides to betray her whole family in favour of some blood sibling she barely knew?
I really shouldn't daydream time flies past when I do! I don't notice we have stopped let alone Taylor holding the door open until I get a prod in the ribs from Christian, ooops!
"When we get home can I have a go?" He growls in my ear
"Huh?"
"On that lip, you've been chewing it the whole way here and that is one hell of a distracting sight" he motions discreetly towards his bulging erection.
"I dunno, you might need to restrain me from getting to your first" I flirt back. The colour drains out his face,
"No Ana, no restraining, I'm not ready for that yet."
"Shit, sorry, I didn't think...." I break off as I see a face peering out of the window, if I had a sniper gun, or any gun in fact I'm pretty sure I wouldn't miss her.
"Calm down Ana, one of you unstable is enough" Taylor whispers in my direction. Christian is entranced by Mia's face, it's like they are suspending reality, pretending that nothing has happened. I see him go to wave and have to interject.
"Christian? Are we going in now?" He snaps out of his trance and fucking furious is back with a vengeance! He storms up to the front door and throws it open almost knocking poor Carrick off his feet. He regains his composure quickly and pretends like nothing happened.
"Christian, Ana, lovely to see you!" He hugs us both like he hasn't seen us in years. Christian clinches and pushes him away, I accept his hug and he makes use of the opportunity to whisper
"I hope he has come for answers not a fight" I can tell he wants to add 'unlike you' onto the end of that but he doesn't. I nod gently as he moves away.
"Where is she?" He growls at his father.
"Now Christian, we are doing this civilly we will sit around the table in the dining room. Where will Taylor be positioned?" Carrick replies in a gentle tone, that implies he has been on the receiving end of Christian's temper before.
"Outside the door. This is private." He replies in a clipped tone.
"Sawyer will be beside Mia at her request, are you sure you don't want Taylor in the room?" I can see the rage on his face at the implication of him physically hurting his sister, but hell even I'm unsure how he'll react!
"I've got Ana" he looks down at me with a strange look of pride. I give a reassuring smile in reply.
"Okay then, follow me." Carrick leads the way along the hall to the dining room. I grab hold of Christian's hand and give it a squeeze. We stop at a set of mahogany double doors with antique brass handles. I shake off my building sense of foreboding. Taylor positions himself by the door.
"Sir I would like to do a security check first"
Christian gives him a small nod and Taylor enters the room in front of us. Carrick goes in next, I follow behind and sit down across from her, I notice her eye is still swollen and bruised I can't help but smile.
"Christian, we are waiting son" Carrick shouts. I look round at him and his eyes lock onto mine, he walks towards me and sits in the vacant seat beside me. I take his hand in mine and smile at him, he still looks like he's going to explode but I know he's calm enough for now.
"Okay, I'm here to be your adjudicator and stop things getting out of control. I know that tempers will flare up but violence will not be tolerated in my home" he looks directly at me as he speaks. Great I'm the bolshy Scottish hot head with a temper to match!
"Why Mia?" He says in a desperate voice. She drops her head and says nothing. "Dammit Mia! I want to know why? Do you not think you at least owe me that?" He slams his hand on the table. Mia lifts her head and takes a deep breath.
"I SAID LET ME IN TAYLOR!" The door swings open and in barges Elliot "it seems you forgot my invitation to the pow wow. What am I meant to be upstairs shagging my fiancee instead of finding out why my wee sister broke my family?"
"Christian, Mia, do either of you have a problem with Elliot being here?"
"No"
"Whatever, like I get a choice anyway"
"What the fuck is that supposed to mean?"
"Like I want to be here! You all hate me, she" she stretches over and points at me "assaulted me in my own home! I'd rather be anywhere else than here right now"
"Yeah well so would I Mia! Does it make you feel warm inside to know you have ruined my life? I'm not the same man I was before, and I don't think I'll ever be him again. The ONLY reason I'm here today alive and well is because of Ana she saved me!"
"How do you think she knew where you were? I told her!"
"Only because you had to"
"I didn't HAVE to do anything! In fact it everything was against me telling her. Jack knew where I was at all times, he had his goons following me. My phone had taps on it, he had taps on everyone's phones. I swear I didn't know Maria was alive, I would have told you, I love you your my big brother."
"Maybe you should have acted like I was your brother then!" She drops her head and sobs.
"Dad tell him, please!" She begs.
"No Mia you need to do this your brother deserves to hear it from you"
"I am, sorry, was pregnant." The silence is deafening.
"What?" Oh God, it hits me like a ton of bricks I turn my head away and fortunately Carrick sees I've turned green and hands me a bucket. I proceed to vomit until my stomach is empty, I look up at Mia again, with fresh eyes. I feel sorry for her. I have no doubt that we were caught in the crossfire of this horrific incident.
"So?" Christian and Elliot look at me, they haven't got it. Mia looks like she could use my bucket. She takes  a deep breath
"He raped me. If I didn't go willingly he would take me by force. I was only willing once and once we were finished he told me he was my brother, then he told me that he wanted to see me again.I didn't realise he would expect sex every time. I didn't know he was recording it at the time.  I was so relieved when you called and said he was in jail. I thought my nightmare was over. I was free, or so I thought. The phone calls started coming as soon as he was in prison. He wanted me to visit him but I refused. Somehow he found out that I was in Scotland he went mental. The phone calls multiplied then the messages started and he sent me videos of us together and some of me with Maria that had been made to look like we were sleeping together. He kept saying if I didn't meet up with him him that he would get Ana. I knew how serious you two were and how good your security is I knew you wouldn't leave her unprotected. That and I didn't think he was serious. He called me the night that Elliot and Kate got engaged. He said I had to split you up up because Ana was his. He was on the phone listening the whole time time so I had to make it seem real. I'm sorry" she saggs down down as if she's empty. We all sit in stunned silence, until Christian raises his head.
"You said you were pregnant"
"I was"
"So what happened?"
"I gave her away"
"You had his baby? Seriously Mia? Do you expect me to believe any of this?" She pulls something out her pocket and slides it across the table to him. It's a picture of a baby in a frilly pink dress, in Mia's weary looking arms.
"He said he'd hurt her if you were found. How do I make that choice? My child, that's small and defenceless or you, big bad Christian Grey and all his hired help? You have security coming out of your every orifice I didn't think he'd get within a hundred yards of you! I had to keep her safe."
I see Elliot and Christian exchanging glances before Elliot speaks.
"Where is she now?"
"Dad and mom took her somewhere, a loving home where she would be safe"
"I'll try again then. Dad where is Mia's baby?"
"Safe"
"She's a Grey and should be with her mother" Christian says quietly, still contemplating all that's been said.
"I can't look after a baby! I don't want her, she's better off with someone else!" Mia shouts as if she's trying to herself as well as everyone else round the table.
"You will get your daughter back and you will raise her, you owe me that. You know that not all adoptions go like ours, she deserves better, she deserves you"
"Don't you dare try to dictate how my life will go Christian! I DO NOT WANT MY BABY! She is only here because I was raped do you think  I want a permanent reminder of that? If that wasn't bad enough she looks like Jack, that sneering face, she is the ugliest child I've ever seen and maybe I should have let him have her instead of you!"
"Mia Grey, I never want to hear you talk like that again!" Carrick admonishes.
"Don't pretend you care Carrick! It wouldn't surprise me if you and Grace replace me with her"
"Shut the fuck up Mia." Oh shit the monster beside me has awoken. "You always were ungrateful, from the minute you arrived you have been stubborn and downright rude to mom and dad. I don't believe your little story Mia! Hyde wouldn't be interested in a baby he was all about Maria." I can see the lightbulb ping on above his head "You chased him! You wanted him! He didn't want you, he wanted Maria, that's why he hated me so much! I was with her. You did fuck her didn't you?" She says nothing He slams his fist down on the table "DIDN'T YOU?" She looks up with a gleeful smile, that is so creepy it's unreal.
"Yes, big brother. I ducked your girl over and over and over again, till she screamed. I was better than you at everything! Jack wanted to carry on our blood line so he was fucking us both, trying to get us pregnant." She sneers at him goading him to hit her. "I organised her death scene, it was impressive wasn't it! She couldn't hide her pregnancy from you anymore so she had to disappear, the wilds of Scotland are  a great place to hide. Oh and her baby might be yours"
"You are one sick twisted little bitch aren't you? I had you pegged right from the start!" I seethe.
"I told Jack about you and Kate, I even set up Ethan. Christian doesn't deserve to be happy. I wanted to break him and his whole world and, look, I did" she says innocently, throwing her head back and laughing hysterically.
"Mia!" Carrick looks physically shaken. He lets out a loud groan and slumps over off his chair.
"Taylor!" He bursts into the room
"I need my mom and an ambulance. And call Flynn. Mia is mentally disturbed and needs sectioned."
Taylor and Sawyer spring into action. Elliot and Christian stand Carrick up off the chair and carry him out the room I go to follow when I'm stopped in my tracks
"He'll want his baby you know! Maria was the love of his life and he will want that child, more than he wants you Ana. Oh and do you know something, I watched you and him together having sex, your not a patch on my sister. You are  a dirty skank Ana. I wish they had killed him, that was the plan. I was following you. You were meant to watch as he died, two broken people for the price of one. I hate you. I wish you were dead, both of you, then I'd have Jack and Maria back again. Jack adored Scarlett. He watched me give birth, he held my hand. He named our child. He was soft and gentle, you are lying bitch, he never touched you"
"Go to hell Mia!" I turn on my heel and run after the boys leaving Taylor and Sawyer with Mia.
They are in the lounge with the paramedics, they are giving Carrick medication and loading him onto a stretcher. Kate and Ethan come rushing in.
"What the hell happened?" Kate asks.
"He's had  a heart attack" Elliot snaps.
"Shit!"
"How's Mia?" The Grey brothers turn and stare at Ethan. You know the phrase if looks could kill, well Ethan would have been hung drawn and quartered with that look!
"On her way to a psychiatric hospital, hopefully never to return!" Elliot quips.
I notice Flynn striding up the hall with Taylor. Mia is following behind, being 'helped' by Sawyer. The paramedics are carrying the stretcher to the ambulance. We follow.
"Hope he dies, couldn't happen to  a nicer man!" Mia hollers from the back of a darkened vehicle. I see Flynn inject her with something and her slump over. I notice Sawyer is in the car too.
Flynn gives me a nod as the door closes.
Taylor pulls around and Kate, Elliot, Ethan, Christian and I jump in. My mobile is ringing. I pull it out my pocket my mum's picture is flashing on the display.
"Hi mum"
"Ana, what's going on?"
"Are you with Grace?"
"Yes. She bundled us in the car and is driving like a looney!"
"Carrick has had a heart attack"
"Oh right so I guess I'm left holding the baby!"
"Don't be so dramatic mum!"
"No really honey. Grace has just run into the hospital and left me with her, do I feed her or what?"
"What are you talking about mum?"
"Scarlett"
"Who is Scarlett?"
"Mia's baby" I nearly drop the phone.
"I'm coming mum, sit tight I'll be there in two minutes."
"Okay honey see you soon bye"
"Bye"
How the hell do  I put this to them?
"Christian we have a problem."
"What is it Ana?" He looks really worried
"My mum is sitting in your mum's car"
"We will get her then no biggie baby, you had me worried there"
"Scarlett is with her"
"Who's Scarlett?"
"Mia's baby"
There is a sharp intake of breath and all eyes are on Ethan.
"I didn't know." He looks scared "honestly, I didn't"
"Fuck"
                                                                                                                                                                         
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Chapter 28 A Nightmare Before Dawn

A/N Fifty shades belongs to E.L. James this story is mine!
A bit a carry on from the last chapter. I'll admit I've been struggling to write so this is a bit of a filler chapter Sorry! I wanted a bit more kink before the major angst of the showdown.
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I run into the bedroom and sit on the bed.
"Who said you could sit?" He growls almost menacingly.
"Sorry sir" I murmur as I stand up.
"Bend over Anastasia, and hold your ankles" I do as I'm told. I feel Christian's hands on my hips as he pushes my legs apart. I feel him thrust into me urgently, hungrily I push back, I nearly topple over. He holds my hips and pulls me upright pushing me towards the nearest wall. My forehead rests on the cool white wall as he grips my hair with one hand and fondles my clitoris with the other. He keeps up a steady pace infill I reach round and squeeze his bollocks.
"Do you like that baby?" I whisper in his ear. His groan is enough to let me know he's close. He speeds up to a frantic pace slamming into me again and again. I feel his whole body shudder as he calls my name like a prayer to the heavens.
Gone is dominant Christian, in his place slumped on the floor is a broken man.
"Why me?" He says pulling me down onto his knee
"I don't know baby." I pull his head to my chest and hold him, he doesn't cry. He sits and slowly calms.
"I need to talk to Mia. I need you to come with me." He stares into my eyes, I know he needs answers but...
"I really don't think that's a good idea, my temper may get the better of me again and I might not have the restraint to just hit her once." I try to pull away and stand up.
"Don't leave me Ana. Please don't leave me." He holds me tighter, God this guy coulda been a boa constrictor in a past life!
"Your gonna break my ribs!" His grip loosens but he doesn't let go. "I need to go for a pee and you ain't coming honey!" I smile at him, he gives a small uncomfortable smile back and let's me go. "I suggest we get some sleep if we have to go see, well, her, in the morning."
"Yeah I suppose" he rises from the floor only to plop himself on the bed, a small improvement, I quickly go per and check myself over in the mirror, My hair looks like I've been shagged through a hedge backwards! Bugger, I'll need another shower in the morning... maybe Christian will liven it up for me!
I go back into the bedroom to find him fast asleep. I pull the duvet up over him and go to get a cup of tea to mull over my thoughts. I slip on one of his t-shirts and his dressing gown and owner out to the kitchen. I make a pot of tea and sit staring out at the Seattle skyline. Wow these last few months have been a hell of a whirlwind! I barely know this guy but something tells me he's the one. My life is one gigantic void when he's not here and I'll kill anyone that gets to hurt him. He's weak just now and I will be his strength. I'll be the wind beneath his wings, oh hang on that's a Bette Middler song! I jump when I notice someone else is in the room. I look over and see the warm face of Gail.
"Ana! I'm so glad your back!"
"So am I Gail! I should never have left! Sorry if I woke you, I thought I was being quiet."
"You didn't wake me, I just like a warm milk before bed and there was no milk in the fridge upstairs so I saw a light on and came down, I did expect to see Mr Grey though!" She giggles.
"You can join me if you like?"
"Erm... No I've got to get back to Jason, he'll be wondering where I am" she gives me a conspirational wink. Oh, yeah Taylor! I forgot the two of them are a couple they really know how to do discreet, only once have I caught them kissing and even at that they were so embarrassed you'd have thought they had been taking part in an orgy on the living room rug! She practically sprints up the stairs, it's so cute!
I finish my tea quietly, wondering what the morning will bring. I'm rinsing my cup and the little pot in the sink when I hear screaming. Taylor comes running down the stairs flipping every light on in the apartment. I look around an see nothing. I notice that he doesn't have his gun, that's a bit weird. He looks at me and nods towards the bedroom door.
"Is there someone in there?"
"No ma'am only Mr Grey"
Fuck! It's him screaming! I push open the door Taylor follows behind me. I wonder why he's here? I nudge Christian to try to waken him. His hands reach out and he grabs me he pins me to the bed one hand round my throat and one hand pinning my arms above my head.
"Christian!" I scream as loudly as I can. Taylor is pulling him off me, his hand is still tightly clamped around my neck slowly cutting of my air supply. My head is beginning to swim from the lack of oxygen but I remember something dad said to me when I moved to Glasgow. I pull my knees up to try to get him in the groin but that doesn't work so I use all the strength I have left to push hard against him with my feet, that combined with Taylor's pushing is enough to let me escape. I roll off the bed and hide, gasping for breath. I see a third set of feet walk into the room and hear a loud splash.
"Huh? What the fuck? Taylor? Gail? Why are you in my bedroom? Why am I drenched and where is ANA?" He sounds mad as hell!
I roll out from under the bed still feeling pretty woozy. Gail helps me up and looks over my injuries.
"Jason I think we need Doctor Trevelyn over and Dr Flynn" Christian looks at the three of us like we are mad.
"Will someone tell me what's going on?"
"Y..You...att..ack..ed...me" I rasp out still struggling with my breathing.
"You had one of your dreams again Mr Grey" Taylor explains. The colour drains from his face.
"Oh God Ana, I'm so sorry!" He reaches out for me, and even though I know he wouldn't attack me when he's conscious, I flinch and move away. He pulls his hand back. He jumps off the bed grabs some clean stuff out of the drawers and goes to the bathroom to change. Gail helps me through to the lounge and I sit on the couch.
"Take deep breaths Ana, Dr Trevelyn will be here soon" she gently strokes my arm.
"I'm fine Gail" I sound horse and wheezy. Christian appears looking like a deer in the headlights. He catches my eye and I can see how sorry he is. "I'm okay" I cough out. He hesitantly comes over and sits at the side of me. I take his hand and he drapes his other arm over my shoulder.
"Christian? Ana? Is everything okay?" Grace calls as she steps out the lift.
"In here mom"
She comes running into the room. She looks at me then at him. He retreats to the other side of the couch letting go of me, I can feel the shame radiating off him.
"Nightmare?"
"Yes"
"Did you take the medication?"
"No"
"Really Christian! I thought you would at least manage to follow one simple instruction" she has her stethoscope out and is listening to my chest from different angles. "Okay honey your breathing is a bit laboured and I'd prefer you to get checked at the hospital."
"Really Dr Trevelyn I'm fine. I just want some sleep and I'll be okay in the morning"
"Grace, please Ana! You will have a lot of bruising around your neck, If you won't go to hospital then I'd prefer to stay with you, you can either come to Bellevue or I'll stay here"
"I'm really okay Grace. If I feel worse I'll call an ambulance."
"No, I'm staying. Mrs Jones could you help Ana to the nearest room, I will be in the one next to it. I'll check on you in a minute Ana I just need a chat with my son first."
I flash Christian my it'll be okay smile and leave with Mrs Jones. She takes me up to the room Kate and Elliot occupied last time I was here.I climb into bed.
"How long has he been having nightmares Gail?"
"Ever since you left Ana." She looks at me sadly before leaving the room. Grace is in five minutes later to check on me, I pretend I'm asleep so she listens to my chest takes my pulse and leaves.
It's a long night and I cough and rasp my way through it. Just as the light starts to peak through my window, I feel sleep finally take me.
When I awaken I'm aware I'm being watched. I sit up slowly, last night seems like a horrible nightmare, but judging from the fact I'm in a guest room and the look on his face I know it wasn't.
"I'm sorry Ana! I didn't mean to..."
"For God's sake I'm fine! How many times do I need to say it!"
"But the bruises... Christ Ana I nearly fucking killed you!" He runs his hand through his hair for about the millionth time, judging from its fuckedupedness. I roll my eyes at him.
"But you didn't, that's all that matters" I stroll over to him and sit on his lap.
"But I could have, I, I thought you were her, I wanted to kill her"
"Who? Maria?"
"No. Mia" he hangs his head.
"Oh, I understand now why you want to talk to her."
"I'm waiting till you can come too baby. I need you to stop me."
"I don't think I'm the best person for that job! Wouldn't you be better with Taylor?"
"Maybe, but I want you" he burys his head in my hair and takes a sniff. I run my hands through his hair and gently pull him back placing a gentle kiss on his forehead foreheads leans back and presses his lips to mine. I push back hard against him, he groans and I know how to erase last night's horrible nightmare. I slide off his lap and unbuckle his belt pop his button and tug his trousers down. When they are pooled at his ankles I remove his boxer shorts. His erection is waiting for me. I lick it up and down, taking each of his balls in my mouth, he groans as I pop them out and give him a deep kiss. I drop my head back into his lap and suck him, lowering my mouth round him, stroking him with my tongue. I move up and down around him, licking and flicking the head. I roll it round my mouth, his hips move pumping up into my mouth, I look up at him. His eyes are shut and his head is back. I bring him quickly to his orgasm. I suck up every drop and lick him clean. I stand over him and he rises he pulls me over to the bed and lays me down. He slowly peels off my clothes exposing my naked flesh. He strokes his hand from my cheek, down my neck, over my breasts across my tummy before he rests it in my pubic hair. His fingers swirl around grazing my clitoris before he trusts them hard into me.
"Always so wet and ready for me"
"Yes baby, I love you, in every way"
"How do you feel about vaginal fisting Ana?"
"I haven given it much thought, in fact I've never thought about it"
"It temporarily loosens your vagina so that the sex feels different. I'd really like to try it with you as your always soaking wet baby and I want to bury my whole body in you"
Fuck, I can feel myself getting wetter with his words!
"Okay let's try it" my body convulses with anticipation.
"Safe word if you need to"
"Hmmmmmmmmm..."
I feel his fingers gently pushing and stretching me,
"That's three baby" okay maybe I don't need the running commentary but fuck this feels good! I feel the fourth one slip in before he tells me that it's there. He thrusts in and out, stretching me to the point where I feel like I could burst.
"Five" his ragged breathing gives away his excitement about what he's doing. It's only just not painful and the sensation is one of fullness and excitement mixed with adrenaline from the fact that this feels forbidden. My heart is pounding and I can feel my insides quivering as all the unfamiliar feelings build, to a near crescendo.
"I'm fucking coming baby" I feel my insides clamping around his fist.
"Fuck Ana!" I can feel myself coming back down only for him to move and set me spiraling into another body shattering orgasm.
"Oh fuck, fuck, fuck!" I scream as my body is pushed to the limits of the amount of pleasure I can withstand.
He pulls his fist out and slams his penis into me. He groans loudly
"Jesus Ana you feel so different, it's like I'm fucking a different woman! Your looser in some places and extra tight at the top, oh baby, this is fucking amazing!"
He grips my hips and thrusts hard pumping me and him to reach a quick climax and again I feel like I'm gonna pass out from pleasure overload! He rolls off me panting heavily.
"I love you baby"
"I love you too baby"
We lie in silence until we regain control of ourselves. I roll onto my side and he rolls up to face me.
"So are you ready to see her"
"Honestly?" I nod at him "no I don't think I ever will be."
"Well you gotta bite the bullet sometime!"
"I know. We'll get you some lunch then go"
"Lunch?"
"Yeah it's one thirty I let you sleep."
"Okay. I'll get dressed then eat and we will go exorcise some demons"
His face looks grim but he nods. He stands up gesturing to a neat pile of clothes on top of the drawers
"I got you some clothes"
"Thanks" I go to get up but he stops me.
"Ana I need you to promise me something"
"What?"
"That if I ever hurt you again you will run away and never look back"
"I can't promise you that baby" I stroke his cheek "you'll never hurt me again, not after today. Once Mia is dealt with we will be fine"
He nods before he leaves the room. I sit for a minute before getting up and jumping in the shower. I scrub my hair and give my body a good clean, God my man can work me up into a sweat! I dry off and survey my body in the mirror. The bruises around my neck are horrific I have smaller bruises on my wrists I look like I've been attacked by a gang not held down by my boyfriend! I slap some foundation on them and cover them as best I can I rush to get dressed into the clean clothes. OMG he's got me jeans?! I'm thrilled cute white skinny jeans and a teal strappy top. A long gray waterfall cardigan completes today's look. I pull on my socks and find he's got me a pair of funky converse that look like they have graffiti on them. I straighten myself and head down to have lunch. It's a silent affair given I'm the only one eating! I finish quickly and he disappears for a minute before bringing trough my pink coat and his own coat.
"Ready?" I ask
"As I'll ever be"

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Chapter 27 The End?

A/N Fifty shades belongs to E.L. James this story is all mine!
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I sob until it hurts. I have no tears left, my body has become devoid of all emotion. I get up from the floor and head to the cupboard, I pull out my possessions and shove them in my little red suitcase. My mission here has been accomplished, it's time to go home. Mum will know what to do. I zip the case shut and leave the key with the landlord downstairs. I trudge out the door and walk up the street. I keep my head down as I'm in no mood to be polite. My eyes are burning in the fresh air and my head feels like it's going to explode, but none of that matters. Mum will make me better. I walk and walk, not really knowing where I'm going, only having a vague familiarity with Seattle. I'm looking for the airport, I should have got a taxi and now I'm lost. My inner sense of numbness is beginning to retract and the pain is too much. I drop onto a bench. It feels comforting and familiar and calms me again. I raise my head and look around. I'm at the park where we had our picnic! I recall that day with joy only to feel the weight of his rejection pile onto me again.
"... Well I'm sorry I can't stand here and watch you wallow in self pity anymore, you don't even look at me! Do I repulse you that much? Do you want me to go? Your pushing me out out and anytime I try to find out why no one wants to talk to me! FUCK! Christian?! Are you even listening to me? I need to know what you want and I'm gonna stand here until you tell me!"
The bastard let me stand there for an hour before staring directly into my eyes
"Fuck off Ana" no emotion, no explanation, nothing!
"Fine I'll go pack now then. Good bye Christian. I still love you" nothing. He can see the tears streaming down my face but there is no reaction. I head upstairs and pack.
"I'm going now." I lean forward to place a gentle kiss on his cheek and he recoils from me.
That was the moment I realised I'd lost him.
"Here" I'm dragged back to the here and now and see a handkerchief being waved at me.
"Thanks" I gratefully accept it from the stranger. I dry my eyes, again, wondering how my body can produce quite so many tears. I look at the man that has sat beside me. It's Ethan!
"Ethan?"
"Hi Ana" he looks at me with pity like I have a dead relative.
"Why are you here did you follow me? Doesn't your little bitch need you?"
"Ana, I get your emotional so I'm gonna ignore that last part, and she's fine by the way, just a black eye. Hell yeah I followed you, I saw the state you were in leaving Mia's! Ana you are on missing persons reports both here and at home, everyone is trying to find you Steele and here you are alone, when there is no need to be!"
"I couldn't call, then you'd find me! I has issues to resolve with miss grey that was more important"
"Really Ana? SERIOUSLY? Kate is beside herself, your Mum has been making pleas on the news, she even came here Ana! She's staying with Grace in Bellevue. I'll take you to her now if you want"
"No. I'm going home, I never want to see another Grey so long as I live! I'm done with the drama, I'm done with the emotional rollercoaster, I'm just done Ethan. I'm tired and I have a plane to catch if you'll excuse me."
I stand and Ethan lets me pass. He looks upset but he'll get over it. I walk and walk trying in vain to find the airport, I end up at a bus stop. I wait, just my luck no busses are due for another hour. The day is slipping by and I know that Ethan will have told everyone where I am and where I'm heading. It starts to rain, the rain that soaks through all your clothes instantly. I'm drenched and my hair is stuck to my head. My suitcase doesn't look like it's holding up well either, that'll teach me not to buy cheap luggage! It's slowly getting darker. I take a good look around, this does not look like the friendliest neighbourhood to be in after dark! I grab my sodden case and trundle on in the rain. I decide to try to get back into the heart of the city where there will be lots of people and I'll blend in a bit better. I walk at an almost frantic pace when I notice out the corner of my eye that I'm being followed! It's about 200 yards behind me and its definitely tailing me. I put my head down and pick up my pace so that I'm almost jogging with my case bashing along behind me. I twist and turn up and down side streets in between buildings yet this car is always there. I stop at the first high-rise I come to. I sit on top of my suitcase on the pavement outside. There are lots of people milling about and the car appears to have gone. Once I've caught my breath I head to the nearest bus stop. I look at the timetable there is one due in five minutes that will take me to SeaTac. I glance about at my surroundings. They seem familiar. Across the road is a large tower block, it looks like an office complex. It looks like it's entirely made of glass and it shipments in the moonlight, the name is etched across the impressive front doors, I can't read it from here. I squint my eyes trying to make it out but I really can't. I see a fleet of black Audi people carriers pull up outside the building. An attractive blonde holds the door open. Two older women get out the first car, they have their arms linked together, they stride through the doors the next car contains a young couple, he is tall and muscular and she has flame red hair that I would recognise anywhere. I sit frozen to the spot, knowing where I am and who is about to emerge from the final vehicle. He stands tall, broad and muscular. He has a cane and is still every ounce the Adonis. I can feel the chemistry we have crackling through the air between us, every hair on my body is standing up. I want to jump up and run over to him, but I won't. Just as I think he's about to turn around my bus comes, I can't be here, the pain of seeing him lances through me. I jump aboard and pay my money. I sit down and look out of the window. He catches my eye barely for a second and then he's gone.
The bus trundles slowly through the streets of Seattle. It's taking every ounce of strength I have not to jump up and stop the bus. I can do this, I can leave. I feel my hand hitting the stop button before I even realise I've done it. I grab my case and run back towards Grey House. The cars are gone and the place is eerily quiet. I didn't imagine it, I know I'm not going mad! I stop outside the door and contemplate my next move. Mum and Kate are in there, they won't let anything happen to me. It's not as if my life could get any worse, unless of course, he rejects me in front of everyone, that would top the misery I'm in right now. I hesitate and step back. The door swings open
"We've been waiting for you Miss Steele" she smiles the fake blonde bimbo smile. I know she must have a brain but she sure is playing the dumb blonde to perfection.
"Yeah...sure you have!" I can't help it sarcasm runs through my veins.
"If you'd follow me"
"Erm, no, sorry, I made a mistake, I have to go" I go to grab my bag but it's gone, I bet Taylor took it, damn that man! He's too bloody sneaky!
"Where exactly? Where is more important than here? Your mother is beside herself upstairs, your best friend has barely slept for a week and you boyfriend needs you so where do you have to go that's more fucking important than that Ana? I'd love to know!" Elliott's voice booms around the vast lobby.
"My boyfriend? I don't have one Elliot didn't you hear, he dumped me, and as for Kate and mum I hardly think here is an appropriate place!"
"Then explain this to me Ana, why are you here?" I don't know! Why am I here? I look up at Elliot confused as hell I can see I'm not leaving, he can see I'm not leaving, but I can't seem to move forwards either.
"I don't know" he grabs my hand and pulls me into the lift. I try to fight my way out but I'm exhausted and hungry and still very wet. I stop fighting him and he holds me tightly in his embrace.
"Christian is a dick sometimes Ana but he loves you. You leaving pulled him back from wherever he went. He has been searching for you, Taylor has been all over the country looking and we find you through Ethan? And even then it's that first wee temper of yours that gets you caught. Mia's fine by the way"
"Yeah I know, Ethan said earlier."
"You saw Ethan? When?"
"He found me in a park, he followed me, a few hours after I hit Mia."
"Son of a bitch didn't tell us!"
"I asked him not to. Don't be mad at Ethan for my actions." The lift doors burst open into another reception. I recognise this one, very well. My insides are doing somersaults, I feel like I'm gonna puke, this is not good. Elliot pushes me from his arms out the door. He follows behind blocking my exit. I can physically feel my heart beating. I stumble forward, I can feel myself teetering and just as I'm about to face plant, I feel his arms wrap round me. Holding me tightly, not letting me drop. I can barely breathe, I don't want to look into his eyes and feel his rejection but the sadist in me pushes my eyes up his body as I scramble to my feet. The cast is off his leg and I can see a cane nearby. His arms feel as strong and reliable as the first day we met, his body although covered I can feel it bristling with the same electricity as mine. His chin is covered in designer stubble, either that or he hasn't shaved today, his lips look warm and inviting. We are now standing face to face, he still hasn't let me go. I can feel desire spreading leisurely throughout my body. I lift my hands to run through his hair, he doesn't stop me. I can feel his hands moving up my back into my hair and down my front. I'm about to look him in the eye when he pushes me back against the nearest wall. He pins me with his thighs and I can tell at least part of him is pleased to see me! He still won't look at me. He grabs my arms and pins them above me, I'm now entirely at his mercy.
"Ahem! Anastasia Rose Steele you have a lot of explaining to do young lady!" My mother's voice bellows from behind Christian. He drops my hands and turns his back to me before hobbling into his office. Damn why won't he look at me?!
"Mum! I missed you" I launch myself at her and she wraps me up stroking and kissing my hair.
"Ana your soaked! You need a hot bath and to get those clothes off as soon as possible!"
I hear a feint groan coming from Christian's direction, but no one else pays any attention, I must be hearing things!
"Ana! We need words!" Kate grabs me too.
"Sorry. I had to do something..." I trail off when I see Grace.
"I hope that's put an end to all this nonsense once and for all. Mia is an easily led young woman..."
"Don't mom" Grace looks over speechless.
"Christian?"
"Don't stand there and fucking defend her and her scummy family" he roars.
"Its ok son, they are gone now. I'm here nothing will happen again" Kate, mum and I feel like a bunch of voyeurs watching this private family moment. We shuffle out the door, I'm at the back and for some reason I can't leave the room.
"I know you are mom but it's not you I want" please look at me, please say it's me you want! I'm already yours baby, heart and soul! I can't help myself
"Who do you want then Christian?" If I could kick myself I really would. I find myself staring into cold hard Grey eyes. There's no sparkle, no life, no love. It's not me! I can feel the tears threatening to break through the dam I've built up, no I refuse to cry over him again. Fuck one solitary tear zig-zags it's way down my face. I cannot break contact, it hurts to keep linked to him but I'm like a moth attracted to his flame. His eyes melt like molten lava in front of me, I see the passion, the desire, the darkness, I can see his soul.
"I want you Ana." I run to his arms and kiss him with everything I have. "I don't want you to die from hypothermia though Miss Steele!"
"Yes sir" I whisper. I can feel his body shudder. He leans forward to try to lift me, but I stop him.
"I don't think that's a good idea now is it?" He laughs. I walk over to the door with limpy following behind.
"Taylor, we need a car, to Escala please...myself and Miss Steele...thank you." I smile at him. He takes my hand and we board the lift with everyone else. My mum thrusts a phone into my hand.
"Hello?"
"You off chasing the boys Ana?"
"Something like that Dad!"
"Are you going to stay there then? With your young man?"
"I don't know dad"
"Do what makes you happy sweetheart"
"Thanks dad. I love you"
"I love you too, and if your mother asks I really shouted at you okay?"
"Yes dad"
I hand the phone back to my mum she says goodnight to my father and puts it away.
We step out in the lobby. Grace is organising everyone into the correct vehicles, it's not that difficult a job to do! Mum and Grace head off to Bellevue. Kate and Elliot are going to his apartment in the pike market district, or at least I think that's what they said? A district named after a fish? You live and learn! Christian and I are off to Escala, a little piece of heaven on earth. I hug everyone goodbye and climb into the car.
We arrive quickly, and I'm soon I'm the huge room that is his lounge/dining/kitchen and ballroom all in one! He drags me into his room, into his en suite. He fills the bath with bubbles and orders me to strip. I'm hesitant as he hasn't looked at me since Grey House.
"Ana take your clothes off and get get in the damn tub!"
"You could at least aim to be polite Christian!" I slowly begin to strip knowing he's watching me in the mirror. I stop when only my underwear remains. It's the cotton bra and pants with the embroidered hearts he gave me. I see his eyes prowling over my reflection. I walk over to him
"Are you gonna sit and watch me like a pervert or are you gonna show me that you do actually want me?" His hands immediately are on me, he unhooks my bra and throws it away then yanks off my panties. He balls them up and smells them. God that turns me on.
"Get in the bath Ana"
"Only if you'll join me..." there is no hesitation, he pulls his t-shirt over his head and drops his jeans. His underwear comes off showing his battle scarred body. His wounds have mainly healed. He has some small marks on his chest.
"Stop staring at them Anastasia! They don't change me."
"They did though, they made you send me away"
"Ana...fuck, I was in a bad place... I still love you, I thought you'd be better if you were free, you weren't happy baby"
"I thought you hated me!"
"I didn't want you to resent me Ana and you were starting to, it hurt me to send you away but, fuck Ana, you ran to a different country!"
"I had to find her..."
"I know, baby, I know" he pulls me close. I can feel the magnetism growing between us.
"Bathtime" I step into the bathtub pulling him with me.
I sit facing him, he pulls me forward onto his lap so I'm straddling him. I lean forward and kiss him with everything I have he returns my kiss with the same firey passion. I moan and his young enters my mouth, gently licking me and enticing me to do a sultry tango with him. His hands snake around my waist to my thighs he pulls me closer his mouth breaks contact with mine and he indulges my nipples. He pulls and elongates them them with his hands, bringing me near the point of climax but letting me teeter on the edge before withdrawing his stimulation. His fingers caress down my body and over my thighs. He brings his hand you and inserts his fingers into me. The electricity flowing through us I feel like I should be lit up like a Christmas tree! He rolls his thumb over my clit and my whole body convulses. He releases my nipple and grabs my wrists. He pulls the round behind me and ties them together with the rope from a soap on a rope, I raise my eyebrow at him. He growls back possessively before living me gently and slamming me down on his waiting penis. I grind my hips against enjoying the friction. The water sloshes about around us. He lifts and drops me moving me by my thighs, I can feel my body tingling, I'm nearly there, I can feel my orgasm, the waves of pleasure cascade over me, my body concludes over and over and over again. I can feel him come to, I milk him for every last drop. I collapse into his arms resting my head on his chest. We lie there content and happy for a few minutes before it dawns on me when we are there.
"Could you untie me? I think I'm meant to be getting clean Mr Grey and your distracting me!"
"We are just getting started baby" he growls "you are mine, only mine Anastasia." He purrs in my ear. "I'm gonna fuck you till your sore baby. I want your juices spurting out of you Ana. I want to take you to heaven then fuck you all the way back down" I moan.
"I am yours baby. Take me any way you want me."
He lifts me to standing and stands up too. We step out together onto the waiting bath mat. He pulls the plug and leads me over to the shower, I'm gonna be wrinklier than a prune at this rate!
"Lets get you washed Anastasia then I think you've been naughty"
"Yes sir, I've been really, really wicked."
He prowls towards me washcloth in hand and he turns on the shower. He soaps me up all over and rinses me clean, then he lathers up my hair massaging my scalp. His hands pus into my head. I fall to my knees as he rubs my head. I look up at him, he's lost in his own world. I know one way to bring him back to the here and now. I grab his cock and suck it gently, I hear him gasp. I massage the tip with my undulating tongue before sliding along its length, taking the whole of him in my mouth feeling every bump and and throbbing vein. I slide up and down his impressive length slowly taking my time. I can feel the water cascading down over my head, I can feel him struggling to hold on as he rinses my hair. He drops the shower head, I don't know if it was intentional or not but it lands between my thighs spraying my clit. My body shudders as the water pressure rises suddenly. I hold on to his arse and quicken my pace. I hear him let out a primal growl as he comes hard and fast in my mouth. I go to stand but he pins me down. I can feel myself building again, I look up at him and the water goes off, leaving me on the brink.
"You are a very, very naughty girl. I think you need a spanking" oh God, I'm practically drooling!
He grabs two towels off the rail and wraps one round himself before wrapping me up in one. He pats and strokes me dry, setting every nerve ending on fire.
"Bed! Now!" Oh God I think tonight is gonna be the best night of my life!

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So back to the kinkyness I will deal with Christian's on going issues, and they will rear their ugly head again, I'm not sweeping it under the carpet I promise! Leave a review and let me know what you think.
CarrieJ x